Do you know how hard it is to open email or your blog to find no one had wrote you…. It gets harder and harder every day.  And I know some of its me.. I don’t like getting all those stories and jokes… I want someone to just say hello… I am just as guilty as the next person… I don’t send hardly and of the junk.  But I don’t send many notes either..  I have naglected my blog something terrible lately… I have had nothing worth writing about.. People do not want to hear of your problems.. They want to hear happiness..  I had some happiness yesterday I had two customers for my book store… Thanks to them… And four lookers from three different countries… Thanks to them…

Thanks to my husband for feeling well enough to go out with me yesterday… He is having surgery this month or next.. I hope its this month, so we can get it over with… He is such a good man that he deserves to be in a better place with his health.

I would love to be able to travel even over night and not worry about my mother… She lives with us and is going blind… And she has a new pacemaker.  I would love for her to be able to take care of herself and not worry about her.. but i can’t … So even if  we could we don’t go anywhere… She still does her own laundry.. makes her bed.. takes care of her med’s.. I guess what I fear is her falling.. and no one here to get her up… She does not use the microwave anymore as its hard for her to see.. so she eats cold meals… if we are not here.. That is not good… So we try to be gone only at lunch time…. and make sure she has left overs or sandwich fixings.  The holidays are coming and would love to go to visit children.. but that would be a few days sense some of them are in SF and we are in NF.  She was telling me yesterday that she is feeling very good lately… That’s good… So I am stuck… I want to place her but what do  I tell her… What do I do to make her feel that she is not being places because she is not love… We just want our freedom… Something she gave away most of her life…. I am not her … I do not want to feel I have to because she is my mother… I have done that for 8 yrs… I have given her a good home and then when we moved here she came with us into our home… But she was well enough we could go off and leave her… Now my husband is getting older and I want to chance to do things on the spur of the moment to get up and call over to where Mom is and say we are going today will call when we get home…   Am I being such a terrible person… We might not go much of anywhere… My husband has sent 20 yrs in service and has been so many places..Well I would like to see those places I never have…. Now his health is declining.. and he does not want to go more than a day away… wants to sleep in his own bed…  I think if we could get a mobile home and put a mattress in it like we have at home he would be somewhat happy… I would love to go from camp ground to camp ground across the United States… from here to Alaska… that way we could travel when we wanted and stop when we want… eat what we want … stay as long as we want in some places and not in others…I would love for our friends to go with us.. But its hard going with others as they might want to stop and start as many times as we do… Well anyways this is all a pipe dream… We will never get to do this.  Because of Mother and Husband.. I will go to my daughters this coming year.. I will fly by myself and go for a week or two… Leave the two of them here to take care of themselves…I have to or I will go crazy…

This little blog has taken on a life of its own…. I will be at the flee market this weekend…. come see me  mention getting free Harlequin after a purchase of $4.oo  That’s 6 books….

Come visit my online store ,you can find books new and used, audio books, large print books, Cd’s, movies, shot glasses   just take a look….www.readerwave.ecrater.com   www.shotglassheaven.ecrater.com   Then I have Waiting for Agnes  a new autographed book at ecrter as well as www.ebay.com and www.amazon.com  three places three different prices as each place charges different … ecrater is the least amount of money…

Have a great rest of the holdiay weekend..